Stalia Week | Day Two: Favourite Scene→ Well I don’t like this. I’m gonna kill you.
You lost all interest in this world. You were disappointed and discouraged, and lost interest in everything. So you abandoned your physical body. You went to a world apart and you’re living a different kind of life there. In a world that’s inside you.
There will come a time when you want to cut off all your hair. Do it. Realise that the thing you want rid of doesn’t lie in the long curls that frame your face so perfectly. Live with short hair for a while. It’ll grow.
You won’t always want to talk to people. That’s okay. When it’s late and you hear your friends talking in the next room, you don’t have to join them. You’re allowed your solitude. It makes company sweeter and it teaches you how to survive alone. You will need that skill.
In the winter, you’ll believe that nothing will ever grow again. You’re wrong. Every year, London looks like it’s on its last legs, wheezing through those last cold days in March. Every year, spring comes like an explosion and the city shakes off its sleep.
Mundane problems will get the better of you sometimes. Don’t worry. Try as you might, life cannot be an endless, beautiful, intense moment. Find comfort in money worries and late trains; they’re a welcome rest in between heartbreaks and breakdowns.
People will call you a cynic, a wry smile on their faces. Pay them no mind. You alone know that you are capable of a love greater than anything they can comprehend. You alone know that you are not willing to sell your identity and respect to the first smirking halfwit to pass by. It is not cynicism. It is reverence for your own vast and fathomless heart, and it makes sense only to love someone who understands that and is awed by it.
You will not always get what you want when you want it. Accept it. Your goals are not set in stone and you are not on a fixed trajectory. Sometimes, life will take its time and you will have to play the long, interminable game. Play it well and with as much grace as you can muster. Live at your own pace.
At night, you will occasionally wake up afraid, wanting to die. Don’t give in. Night plays its tricks, but you are not so easily fooled. Your mind will play its tricks, too. It will make you believe that you’re not who you are, but you must not give in. You take a breath and you tell yourself that you are here. That you always were.
Don’t you…ever forget about me~
When you toss and turn in your sleep
I hope it’s because you can’t stop thinking about
The reasons why,you close your eyes
I haunt your dreams at night
So you can’t stop thinking about me
Don’t stop thinking about me~
With Mamsi at my Lola’s funeral last week.
Two deaths in the family this month.
Second death anniversary of my Tito too.
Dahil kathniel fan kami ni Haezel at napanood namin ung movie ng Kathniel na Pagpag,ayan we decided na magpagpag muna sa Starbucks since minsan lang din naman. I’m not really fond of cold coffee pero minsan lang naman. Coffee coffee lang at Hang Out Hang Out lang. Trending topic din samin ang PBB kaya poor Mark and Keith who doesn’t watch. Hihihi.
Gusto kona magwork para more CoCoL at HoHoL moments with my friends. Hindi puro CoCoL with my HoHos (Hundreds of Hand Outs). Hahahaha!
Claire and the Saint (daw sia sabi nia hahaha) at St Claire.
With my Tol while waiting for the others~
Ewan koba iba iba ata kaya kami ng time zone?! Hahaha.
Grabbed the chance to pray for my Tita’s soul,her family,and for my upcoming board exam.
Ang puti kona. Hihihi.
"May not be together often but together when it matters."
Thurs afternoon when I got the news that my cousin Kat’s mom died. I couldn’t believe it. Tita Marlyn is gone. She’s one of the kindest person I know. It’s so sudden. So heartbreaking. And I was even more heartbroken when I learned the details. It was an accident that took her life. Nakakapanghina ung detalye. Sobrang nalungkot ako. Great things were ahead of her. Her grandson’s 7th birthday this September. Kat’s birthday also. Another grandchild on the way this December. I don’t know what to say to Kat when I finally talked to her on the phone. She was crying and just said “Wala na si Mama”. Gusto ko siya yakapin non para I comfort. Gusto ko sia puntahan kagad. But I have to give her space to absorb what happen. I know she’s still shocked.
I texted Mark. Sa kanya ko lang sinabi kasi close din sila ni Kat. He then contacted our other college friends which surprisingly responded immediately. Nakakatuwa kasi immediately they were there for Kat despite the busy schedules. Alam nio na. Work or study ang pinagkakaabalahan namin ngayon pero nakahanap kami ng time kasi I know our presence would mean a lot to her.
Nung nakita kona si Kat,we hugged and we both cried. She was filling up the details,her regrets. I really don’t know what to say.
Pero after non we started catching up na. Played tong its and bingo. Ayun kahit sandali napatawa namin si Kat. Nakakatawa si Keith talaga at Haezel. Hahaha.
Sana next time na magkita kita kami hindi na dahil sa ganitong dahilan. Sana celebration naman dahil Keith,Joy,Haezel and I are soon to be CPAs. Or soon to be CIAs Kat and Jelly. O kaya kasalan na since we were teasing Haezel and Mich with thoughts of marriage since matagal na sila ng mga bf nila. O kaya binyagan? Who knows?! Hahahaha. Or just simple hangout since we were eyeing a pico de loro adventure.
Basta Kat we’re here for you.
And Tita Marlyn,Rest in Peace.