So Mom had a roadtrip together with her college friends to look for a venue for their batch reunion. Turns out they’ve been looking for her for years and they recently reconnected through Facebook.
She asked my permission if she could attend their get togethers and I said she could whenever she wants to. Kesa nga naman dito lang sia sa bahay at mamroblema at pagselosan ang kung sino sino. Sabi nia Dad disagrees kasi wala daw kasi mag aasikaso samin. Ang sabi ko naman malalaki naman na kami. Di naman na alagain. (Minsan! Haha!)
Actually there were two recent get together but she only attended one because Papsi is such a KJ! Pati kay Mamsi strikto. Ohh men and their rules! Tas ayun. I woke up when she arrived which is pretty late and unusual for her. Asked her how the trip went and she said it was fun and there were many stories and I should’ve come and met the children of her batch mates too. Actually gusto ko talaga sumama kaso kala ko puro oldies sila. Hihi.
Her friend which she calls bff (yes oo teenager po Mamsi ko e) actually offered her a job. I said if she wants to she can take it. I know she wants to work talaga kasi sabi niya namimiss din daw niang magbihis nga maganda,mag ayos,magoffice. Kaya lang ang hirit na naman ni Papsi, “sinong mag aasikaso sa mga bata?”
Sabi nia most of her batch mates were successful and rich. Most of them have cars. Have mansions. Some are businesswomen,some were already doctors, and some already migrated to US. While she was telling me this, I realized how much she gave up for us. All of those,that could be hers. She had a bright future ahead of her. When they got married,Dad doesn’t want her to work anymore. Ewan ko kung concern for us or ego lang niya yun. As I always say,my dad was a good father. But as a husband, I cannot say so. Actually sa kanilang dalawa,mas malayo mararating ni Mom kasi she graduated college tas ung Dad ko vocational lang. She asked mom to give up a lot tapos lagi niya pang pinaiiyak. I know Mom just wants the best for us,pero pwede naman magwork tas maging loving mother padin diba? Most moms can do it. Most families make that situation work.
I am not after the riches that could have been ours if my Mom had continued her career. Mas concern ko ung growth ni Mamsi. Siempre iba nga din naman pag nagwowork ka. May officemates ka. Nakakapagayos ka. Di ka mahihiya sa asawa mo kasi confident ka. Basta iba pag may work. Si Mamsi walang amigas. Tita ko lang. Buti nga me fb na siya ngayon.
Naiinis lang talaga ako every time na naiisip ko na hiningi ng tatay kong I give up nia lahat yon tas di naman pinahahalagahan. Yun ung point. Di pinahahalagahan! Nambababae siya. Di pa sia sensitive sa needs ni Mamsi. Si Mamsi ang meron lang kaming pamilya niya. Eh si Papsi may barkada,may work tas parang naiinis pa sia pag nagdedemand ng attention/assurance si Mamsi.
Kaya ako nag aaral akong mabuti kasi gusto ko talaga matupad ung mga pangarap ko. Ung bahay,ung kotse. Lahat ng giniveup ni Mamsi para lang sa pamilyang to gusto kong iparanas sa kanya. Hindi lang ung yaman (siempre haha!), kundi yung makita na lang niya ung sarili nia sakin. Na successful ako.
Lagi kong sinasabi na ayoko maging tulad ni Mamsi. Lasing man o hindi. Ayoko talaga. Hahaha. She’s a good mother and I appreciate everything she does. Pero ewan ko. She lost her self,her individuality in loving someone too much na unfortunately doesn’t love her that much. I want to be the very loving mother that she is one day, but I don’t want to be the lonely wife and dependent woman she is.
Sa bawat isang pinipili,may isang libong bagay kang tinatanggihan. So anong pinaglalaban ko dito? Maging choosy! Hahaha! Pero seryoso. Piliin yung kayang patunayan na kaya niang sabayan or higit pa siya sa isang libong bagay na pwedeng tanggihan ng isang tulad mo. Yung tipong “ihKcAw lnG zaPhAt nUaH„,” Hahahaha. Yung hindi ka ihoholdback instead ieencourage ka. My Mom had done her part. I hope my Dad realizes that he has to start trying or else he would lose Mom. I’m not expert nor experienced when it comes to love or marriage,but I am a woman. May K naman siguro akong magbanggit ng pangangailan ng isang babae no? Haha.
Ako? Wala pa yung taong pwedeng higitan o sabayan man lang ung mga bagay na pwede kong tanggihan. Ganda ko e! Charot. Madami lang kasi akong pangarap. Yun muna. Ambisyosa kasi ako. 💫
PS. Alam ko mahal niyo naman mga magulang niyo. Pero pahalagahan din. Hihihi.
One of the 7 lessons in life you will learn while playing candy crush from noringai’s book.
Hmmmm. May point.
First preboard is done. Hmmm. Disappointed.
Ewan ko. Nag aral naman kasi ako. Tapos nung exam na nakalimutan ko lang din. Ang dami kasi. Ewan. Carelessness din siguro? Two more months before the actual. Paano pa kaya sa actual diba?
Nag uusap kami ng pinsan ko. Madami kaming life problems lately. Hahaha. Sabi nia wag na daw ako malungkot. Sabi ng friend nia na nagtake din mahirap daw talaga ung exam. Di naman daw ako petiks e. Sabi ko ayun na nga. Wala na nga akong barkada. Dinga ko gumagala. Di na nga ko nanood ng she’s dating the gangster ng kathniel. Di naman ako pbbteens. Di naman nako nagiinom. Tapos kulang padin?! Asan ang hustisya?! Hahaha.
Wala tuloy akong ganang magbuklat ng kahit ano ngayon. Putek malilimutan din naman. #bitter Ayaw kona. Nagtampo nako sa accounting. Hahahaha.
Hayyyyyy life. Might as well just watch a chick flick.
I just want to have a completely adventurous, passionate, weird life.
"Nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be so hard…"
But don’t take me back to the start.
All set for the cold weather!
My favorite blue PJs and blue sweaters and blue headband is out for the upcoming stormy weather. Maybe I should get Max something blue too? Haha. I do love the cold weather but I hate typhoons. It scares me and whenever it rains I think of the homeless people and animals I passed by everyday. Sad. :( But that’s life.
Anyway,long weekend for me. Should take advantage of this since preboards is only a week away. Ughhh. Another typhoon to face~
I am learning every day to allow the space between where I am and where I want to be to inspire me and not terrify me.
Found my way to the bookstore to buy a new mechanical pencil because Max chewed my old one. He basically chews all my stuff like my stapler,my scissors,and sometimes post its on my room. Bad dog! Oh boy I was pissed a lot because it’s such a hassle for me to drop by the bookstore because I’m always sleepy after class. Huhuhu.
I was surprised when I found out that there was a sale. Selected items marked down. I got Marley and Me for 15php and James Patterson for 35php. Napabili ng wala sa oras but I consider them good finds because Patterson is such a good writer. And I’m a dog lover so I immediately grabbed Marley and Me. The tote bag notepad and bookmark were just so cute I couldn’t stop myself from grabbing them. Hahaha! The tote bag costs 50php but I think I could use it on my travels. The notepad and bookmark were 10php each. So all in all I spent 120php. Hihihi. Lunch money for a day but it’s alright because I eat at home! Haha!
When I got home I thanked Max a lot because if it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t passed by the bookstore and wouldn’t found out about the sale. My ruined mech pen lead me to great things! Hahaha! Magkamoral story lang ung kwento e. But seriously, yun ung narealize ko nung araw na yun.
Iniisip ko pag diko napasa ung board ngayon,siguro because greater things are in store. Not being pessimistic ha. Pero siyempre, hope for the best but prepare for the worst.
Pero fight pa diiiiiiin!
Chick flick Friday : The Wedding Singer ❤
Relax muna. Bukas na lang ako ulit mafufrustrate sa dami ng dapat aralin at sa mga problems na di ko talaga makuha. Ayy two more weeks before preboards and I am still catching up with the speed of the lessons. Huhuhu.
“I wanna make you smile whenever you’re sad…”
Pleaaaaase? Make me? :)
Almost. It’s a big word for me. I feel it everywhere. Almost home. Almost happy. Almost changed. Almost, but not quite. Not yet. Soon, maybe.
Ikot ikot lang, ikot ikot~ hahaha. Mga 15mins siang ganyan. 😂😁
Income Tax for breakfast~
Minsan feeling ko masipag naman ako pero bakit ganon parang kulang na kulang na kulang pa din.
Board exam feels. Hayyy life! (ﾉ´ｰ`)ﾉ